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Here are some poems that I have written. These are MY poems so please don't copy them unless you email me and ask for my ok. (I don't know why anyone would WANT to copy them...*g*...but just in case...) They are all depressing, but keep in mind, they were written in the deep depths of depression. I will add more later and change them every once in awhile so come back soon.

Also keep in mind that these poems may not be for sensitive readers. There isnt anything that bad here, but i thought I would put a warning here just in case.. :)


Death
death followed me out the door one morning
it followed me to school and sat in the desk next to me
no one noticed because if anyone looked it would hide
no one cared because death never showed its ugly face to them

it mocked me and invaded my dreams at night
it knew my every move and was one step ahead all the time

death became a part of my being
death stole a piece of my soul
and consumed it with its darkness

i fought death all the way
i fought for my soul
i fought for my being, for my life

however, deaths grasp was just to powerful
one day i surrendered
by using the white pellets and fermented grain for assistance
they always offered me thier services
but i always turned them away
however, this time i embraced them

but death halted
death backed away
death stopped its grip on me

death did not want me anymore
even though by this time i had wanted death
how could this be?
after all my years of fighting it, i finally surrender and it changes its mind?

i took my life back
i regained my soul
i was me and had my being
i was intact
again

but when i went back to school the next day
death was waiting
in the seat next to me
and people still did not notice
and people still did not care
and death continued to mock me and invade my dreams at night
and we continued to live as one


cardboard princess

created in art class
you were 6 years old
you showed me to your teacher
and she beamed with approval
your talent made her shine

you made a cardboard princess
disposable, recyclable
the cardboard princess
painted the lightest shade of pink
with her pie tin tiera

you brought me home to mom
she loved me and hung me on the fridge
when she had company
everyone commented about me
did you make that, Mark?
Mary I swear your boy is gifted!

you made a cardboard princess
disposable, recyclable
the cardboard princess
painted the lightest shade of pink
with her pie tin tiera

through the years i grew old
my pink paint chipped
the pie tin tiera ripped
the hideous brown cardboard showed through
people forgot about me
tossed aside, collecting dust

you made a cardboard princess
disposable, recyclable
the cardboard princess
painted the lightest shade of pink
with her pie tin tiera


..M.y..E.u.p.h.o.r.i.a...

scars bleeding through the silence
cold steel
hard, tough, & sturdy
defending me
the tears are playing hide and seek
defunct, and dormant
pain
reeking through the air like gasoline
liquid thoughts
consume this mind
gnawing like hungry wolves
that have been starving
for too many years



juliette

don't drink the acid rain
it will burn your tongue
and maybe make its way down your throat
to your intestines
and your stomach will rot
with mother natures man made wrath
and you will die the horrible, tragic death
you always wanted
but without your romeo at your side
nothing
but endlessness
and no subconscious to invade your dreams at night
and no consciousness to invade your work a day life
because you will be dead
and pretty boy will be smiling


...Colors...

Colors
Dancing wildly in my head
The crimson, ebony, and blue
Think of rainbows
Think of flowers
Think pretty thoughts to make the pain disapear

Remember
Colors are strong
Colors are alive

There are stains left behind
That taint my mind and my dreams
And will
Forever
Childhoods; shattered
I am the blue violet bruise
That was left behind

Let it heal
Wash it away


...Steel & Steal...

Silver dawn
Its my turn once more

Crimson tides
Surrounding my thoughts
Taking them on a journey
Far away to the land of nothingness

Forever black
I inhale the silence
And it consumes me
An endless equalibrium

Steel (steal) my insanity
Rob me blind